My Endo Diary

This is my second installment in my project 'A Day In The Life Of An Endo Girl' . Read my first entry  here . Again, I just want to bring more awareness to Endometriosis and try to relay what we actually go through on a daily basis! I want people to understand how difficult it can be! 09/09/13 12:30am I've just realised I went through the whole of yesterday without taking any Tramadol's! I wasn't pain free, but I managed a painkiller free day! Wow, a first for everything. 1:55am Can't get to sleep. I have stabbing pains underneath. Curled up with a hot water bottle. 3:30am Dropped off to sleep but just woke up again. I can't get comfortable at all! Pains niggling away. Went to the toilet, a regular nightly thing. 8:25am Been tossing and turning all night. Hardly any sleep. 9:30am Fell back to sleep. Woken up now with pains in my right ovary. Pains are shooting to the top of my leg. 11:00am At the doctors, my appointment is at ten past. The wa

This post is just to bring you all up to speed with what's going on with me at the moment, treatment wise...  I finally got my gynaecology appointment after six months of waiting. I am under a new consultant at the hospital which I am happy with. At my appointment I saw a Junior Doctor called Claire. I was a bit wary as it wasn't the actual consultant. She asked me what had been going on and let me explain everything to her. She actually listened to everything I said and was so understanding and patient when I became a bit emotional. She stated that my overall problem was obviously pain and if they could help to sort that out it could help all areas of my life (e.g working, depression, social life). Which I agree with totally. She talked through some treatment options. The coil, noristhertone tablets, different pills etc etc. Until I told her I had actually tried all of those options already. To say she was flummoxed as what to do next was an understatement. But instead of fo

As ridiculous as this sounds, I've been too embarrassed to just come out and say that I've been depressed.. I'm still depressed.. I have depression. Ok, so here it goes. 12th August my Dr prescribed me antidepressants. I have been on them 6 weeks now. Before I went to the doctors about how I was feeling, things had become pretty bad. I was crying every single day, in pain every single day, fed up of taking medication every single day. It got to a stage where I couldn't see the point in my life anymore. I honestly couldn't see the reason for being here. I was never at a point where I would have acted on my thoughts, but the thoughts enough terrified me. I know it sounds awful and other people are in much worse situations than me, but endometriosis and years of chronic pain have worn me down. I saw a television presenter on morning TV talking about depression & what he had gone through. It felt like he was screaming through the TV directly to me! I couldn'

Endometriosis. Endo. Adhesions. Laparoscopy. Endosisters. Words that I had never even heard of before my own diagnosis. Now they are in my everyday vocabulary. Why does the awareness of this chronic illness have to be nearly as invisible as endo itself? I hate what we have to go through on a daily basis. Isn't it enough to cope with pains that no one else can see without having to fight doctors to believe us that they are there? Surely, we shouldn't have to convince people the pain is not all in our heads! From being doubled over in pain to missing work, school, family time and  special events. To then being put through the mill with all the medications that are thrown at us. Hormones upon hormones. Painkillers and more painkillers. Poking and prodding. Surgery after surgery. Add to that endless amounts of hospital appointments and sleepless nights in between. Is it realistic to think in this day and age that we should be expecting more?  More awareness? Especially with tho

What is Endometriosis? Endometriosis is gynaecological problem, where small pieces like the lining of the womb (uterus) are fo und elsewhere. Each month the lining of the womb builds up and shreds during menstruation. Instead of leaving the body, women with Endometriosis find that these chocolate like cysts migrate to other parts of the body. When stuck to other parts, these implants continue to break down and bleed. This causes inflammation, internal bleeding, pain from scar tissue and adhesions forming and overall, widespread chronic pain. Where in the body is Endometriosis found? Endometriosis can be found anywhere in your pelvis, ovaries, bladder, bowel, vagina, cervix, fallopian tubes, any tissues surrounding the uterus or the area between the womb and rectum (known as the Pouch of Douglas). In rare circumstances endometriosis can be found in places such as the lungs, brain and skin. But these are rare! Personal experience: During my two laparoscopies, endometriosis has b