Do you ever feel like you're going round and round in circles? You think you have jumped through every hoop and crossed every hurdle that endometriosis can throw at you... then all of a sudden you end up back at square one? That's kind of how I feel right now.
It was confirmed to me yesterday that I definitely need another operation. In the back of my mind I knew it was coming, but having it said out loud by my doctor makes it somewhat more real. Definite. Thinking that my endo may have got worse is no longer a passing thought that I can put to the back of my mind. The pain I've been having is real. And I'm on the list for a third laparoscopy, my first only being in 2011.
The doctors think that more cysts may have developed on my ovaries and are concerned that endo may have spread to my bowels again. They are currently checking my notes from my previous operation to see where on the bowel it was found. From this, they will decide if I need a longer time in surgery. The waiting list for this operation will definitely be over 6 months, so I feel in limbo at the moment.
Of course I am happy that I have such a great gynaecology team, my specialist and his staff are so lovely and I spent a whole hour talking to them at my appointment. The doctor listened to everything I had to say and was extremely knowledgeable. I know I am finally getting the help I need and I am extremely grateful for that. I just have a lot of mixed emotions at the situation, being back in this position for a third time is not something I wanted. But then again, endometriosis never gives us what we want. It never plays by the rules. That's just something that I have to come to terms with...again.
It was confirmed to me yesterday that I definitely need another operation. In the back of my mind I knew it was coming, but having it said out loud by my doctor makes it somewhat more real. Definite. Thinking that my endo may have got worse is no longer a passing thought that I can put to the back of my mind. The pain I've been having is real. And I'm on the list for a third laparoscopy, my first only being in 2011.
The doctors think that more cysts may have developed on my ovaries and are concerned that endo may have spread to my bowels again. They are currently checking my notes from my previous operation to see where on the bowel it was found. From this, they will decide if I need a longer time in surgery. The waiting list for this operation will definitely be over 6 months, so I feel in limbo at the moment.
Of course I am happy that I have such a great gynaecology team, my specialist and his staff are so lovely and I spent a whole hour talking to them at my appointment. The doctor listened to everything I had to say and was extremely knowledgeable. I know I am finally getting the help I need and I am extremely grateful for that. I just have a lot of mixed emotions at the situation, being back in this position for a third time is not something I wanted. But then again, endometriosis never gives us what we want. It never plays by the rules. That's just something that I have to come to terms with...again.
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