How do you keep faith and hold onto hope when you're in so much pain?
Where do you find the strength to pick yourself back up and keep going? How do you fight through the next waves of pains? I keep asking myself these questions. Repeating them over and over again. Whispering them so quietly it's hardly a murmur. Shouting them loudly when anger takes over. It doesn't seem to matter which way, I still cant find the answers. This physical and emotional roller coaster has had too many twists and turns for me. Can I just get off? I'd much rather a go on the merry go round, the swings or anything else but this.
I sometimes feel like the help I am looking for is completely out of my reach. Faith is believing things will get better, even when you may not be able to see it. In times of darkness, deep down, you just know better things will come. Faith eludes me at the moment. However, my hope remains. One tiny sliver of hope. A wish. I hope and wish on every bad day that I'll find some faith. Faith which will give me the courage and wisdom that I'm so desperately needing. I'm constantly hoping to find relief from pain. Always hoping for better days.
Never take away someone's hope. It may be all they have.
Where do you find the strength to pick yourself back up and keep going? How do you fight through the next waves of pains? I keep asking myself these questions. Repeating them over and over again. Whispering them so quietly it's hardly a murmur. Shouting them loudly when anger takes over. It doesn't seem to matter which way, I still cant find the answers. This physical and emotional roller coaster has had too many twists and turns for me. Can I just get off? I'd much rather a go on the merry go round, the swings or anything else but this.
I sometimes feel like the help I am looking for is completely out of my reach. Faith is believing things will get better, even when you may not be able to see it. In times of darkness, deep down, you just know better things will come. Faith eludes me at the moment. However, my hope remains. One tiny sliver of hope. A wish. I hope and wish on every bad day that I'll find some faith. Faith which will give me the courage and wisdom that I'm so desperately needing. I'm constantly hoping to find relief from pain. Always hoping for better days.
Never take away someone's hope. It may be all they have.
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