My Endo Diary

So, two days into this week and I honestly cant imagine what else is going to happen. Sunday night ovary pains started to come on. All around my left ovary. Stabbing, cramping. Monday morning the pains were still present in the exactly the same place. Next I had a funny turn. Felt so sick, dizzy and became really sweaty. That passed within 10 - 15 minutes. Later on in the afternoon, the sickness came back. I was out at the time and had a 20 minute drive home. I really thought my mother would have to pull up on the side of the road for me to be sick. Luckily I got home - just in time! I absolutely hate being sick, it makes me feel so unwell & scared. Nausea didn't pass for the rest of the day, neither did the ovary pains. Day 1 of this week done. Day 2 today. Woke up feeling like I'd been hit by a bus. Ovary pains were now going from my left ovary to the right and back again. Got washed and went downstairs to make a hot water bottle. Really wasnt feeling well or quite wi...

These last few weeks have been some of the hardest ever.  Endo is definitely controlling me.  My whole life feels like its just stopping. Physically, the pain has been exhausting. I have spent so many days in bed not being able to get up due to the pain. Stabbing pains, severe cramping, backache. I've been feeling so nauseous & getting headaches. Sleeping at night is just a no go area. Doesn't happen. I find myself going to bed tired but laying there most of the night unable to sleep, mostly due to pain, sometimes I just cant drop off. I've been trying to get naps in the afternoon/early evening just to try help me get through the days. Endless  hot water bottles, tablets and medications. Tramadol, Paracetamols & Cocodamols included. Emotionally is where I'm struggling the most though... I've never felt so low. I feel totally on my own and very lonely. I seem to be crying a lot. Some days I cant even stop myself and have tears in my eyes all day. I...