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Endometriosis - Letter To My Mother

Today in the UK is Mother's Day. For that reason, I dedicate this post to my beautiful mother - who supports me every single day through my endometriosis journey.


Letter To My Mother

Dear Mam,

Where do I start? People say the best place would be the beginning, but I'm going to jump to right now. Without you, I wouldn't even be at this point. I want you to know how much I appreciate what you do for me daily. I bet you never thought you'd still be making me hot water bottles and checking on me at night. You go above and beyond the duties of a mother. Your selfless ways and generous heart constantly amazes me. Even on days when you may not feel 100%, you will still put everything aside if you notice I'm struggling. From making me endless cups of tea's, reminding me to take painkillers, ordering me to rest and to even helping me dress and put socks on when I'm having a bad day!

Endometriosis was a word neither of us had heard of until my diagnosis. But now you're practically an expert in the field and can give any Doctor a run for their money! (Which you have, on more than one occasion, much to my embarrassment.) Without fail, you are at every Doctor's appointment, specialist consultations, scans and operations. Making sure I'm listened to. Giving me a voice when I'm scared.

Some days, endo really does scare me. The pain frightens me. The feeling that I'm losing control over my whole life. But you are always there, with your reassuring, thoughtful and tender words. Sometimes when words are not enough, your hugs or kisses on my forehead are more than enough. I know deep down that you worry about me. However, you never let it show. You are there for me every hour of the day, every day of the week.

These last five years have been some of the hardest times of my life. I've experienced my lowest points but you never let me crumble. I know for a fact without your constant support, understanding and encouragement, I would not be where I am today. Even though I'll be 27 this year, you still nurture me, protect me, look after me and support me. Just like you did when I was little. You are not only my mother, but you truly are my best friend. You are my biggest support.

Some people say there are angels on earth, looking after us everyday.
Without a shadow of a doubt you are my angel and my inspiration.

I love you with all of my heart xxx
#MyEndoDiary

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  1. Happy Mothers Day to your Mum. It is always great to have someone there to look after us xx

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  2. Well this certainly made me well up! so well written and so true. The things our parents do when everyone else walks out is inspiring. Happy Mothers Day to a great mam you have! xxx

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    1. Aw thank you! She is really great and I'm so lucky. Thanks for reading :) xx

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